One of the main reasons there is now more to do is because I had my baby shower recently which means there's a lot to put away again. What a wonderful reason to have more to do though! Our baby shower was absolutely fantastic and we received so much more than I expected. I plan on dedicating a post to just that very soon and give you more of a peak at that awesome day.
Now on to the not so fluffy...
I mentioned in my last post that I was scheduled for an ultrasound on the 16th. Well, apparently the baby seems to have really slowed in growth and also my amniotic fluid levels have dropped. These are indicators that the placenta's starting to call it quits and causing baby to have a growth restriction. Yeah.. Not the news I wanted to hear. I hate the fact that if there is something going on with the placenta, I have NO control over it. There's nothing I can do or anything I could've done.
When my midwife called me about it I instantly thought about the precious baby we worked so hard for and how I just wanted everything to be alright. Then I thought about the fact that my homebirth might be taken away from me. It's meant so much to me to be able to have this baby in the loving environment that is our home. The whole thing has me feeling anxious and even angry. I'm just not a hospital person AT ALL. Not unless there's a medical necessity in which case I can't deny that there just might be.
So What Happens Now?
Tomorrow (2/23) I'm scheduled to be seen by an OBGYN who will do his own evaluation and pretty much decide my fate. Very nerve-wracking to think he might take one look and say "we need to deliver you now". I'm hoping and praying with every fiber of my being that this has all been a mistake and they'll tell me that everything's just fine. Wouldn't that be nice? Either way I'll try to update as soon as I know more, even if it means a quick, one paragraph post. Please pray & keep you fingers AND toes crossed for me!